My thoughts

It's already a few minutes into April 18th. The year passed by fast again.
I don't feel excited or anything, since it's just yet another day. It would've been so much easier not to celebrate anything, but my family makes such a big deal of it.
Yk what makes it even worse than it already is? The fact that I have to wake up at 7 AM for my fucking English exam. I hate morning and waking up at mornings.

But does it actually matter? The only thing that matters is me feeling lonely asf again. It never hits harder than on this day. Every year.
Not that I ever cared about getting friends. Not that I need them. I just look at my family and, well.. I don't know what happens. I just understand that there's no one else but them. And I just know that they only act so nice on this day.

I have nothing to say, actually. I'm pulling words out of myself. I'm tired. I hate this day.

TW ed.
I'm so scared of tomorrow. My family always makes a shit ton of food for every holiday, let alone birthdays. Salads, CAKES, grilled food, sometimes they order pizza... And even though I've asked not to celebrate my bday and symphatized that they shouldn't cook any big meals, they just ignored that.
And then when I ask to (at least) add artificial sweeteners instead of real sugar and not fucking use those fat-rich sauces, they say that it's untasty this way.
But hey, at least my older brother bought some (expensive...) stuff that I enjoy. I'm quite happy with that. Love my brother

Rageposting. I had an online bsf. We've spent years playing videogames together.
Then some shit happened. Summer 2025. We didn't talk until autumn? winter? He found himself a new "girl friend he spends all days with". From my experience, she's just a ████████ █████.
Someone might call me a bad person. But THAT girl is something else entirely. When I didn't give a damn about her and my ex-friend, she was absolutely raging out and blasting shit when talking about me. Tried to make him hate me and leave me. She made a fight with that guy even on the most insignificant things. I'm not describing all that, but it's absolutely absurd, and not just because of my bad opinion of her.

So one of our mutual friends just sent me some of my ex-friend's posts... Posts with blaming text, like "ik ive been becoming distant but why didnt you stop me". And also "no matter how much time we spend apart, youll still be my friend in my mind". And other stuff about his "current state" and the way things are going bad now that he's alone.

I just.. bruh.
Just forget about me, man.

Today I want to talk about tea.
Out of all things (and if we forget about strong coffee), tea must be the best drink people ever created. Though I'm not such a big fan of it and do prefer coffee, it's still the best thing in my mind.

Especially great is Chinese tea. That teas from my country are so mid. It's so plain. Only expensive ones are good. And they're not always good. But Chinese tea, even the cheap one, is always good, if speaking from my experience (I still prefer more expensive ones anw).

So on my try-next list are definitely Jin Xuan (from a specific company(!)), Da Hong Pao(Big Red Robe), and some more. I really want to try the second one, because despite that I usually drink green tea(just because it has a better effect on metabolism and other stuff), I'm more of a "black tea person".
It's such a good thing that China supplies a lot of stuff to my country. I'll update this post/create a new one when I buy the tea I want.

Suddenly got an inspiration to rewamp my site. Though it was nearly done for a week, I recently had my Windows reinstalled and lost almost all assets for the site. I had to find new pics for background—which was PAINFUL, everything looked so ugly—, had to find the font again, dividers...
But I think it's for the best. I like the current version way more.

I've wanted to rewamp my site for so long. It's been, like, 7 months or something. I'm so happy with the result